better in time

it's just normal

What can I do to get a better person.. Maybe this is just normal feeling..

Crapppp...

For the past few (might seems like ALMOST ALL) of my post are about my stupid sadness.. It's just normal maybe for me to have that kinda feeling.. Maybe, I'm just a human still, afterall.. I need not this unhappiness, for 'that'. I wasted 3months of rejuvenating on an idiot.. Now I have to scrape back, one by one..

Let me smile!

a sollen day a lonely boy

A monologue of an empty night:

Night oh night,
hear this my whisper,
why oh thy shall come,
today like yesterday,
tomorrow like today,
any new bring I accept,
I just wish I can sleep,
And never to wake up..

Name: Euan
Like: Food, sleep
Dislike: Lose
Dream: I'll allow no one to come between my way

what that is to say

What? A break-up.. A silent one? I still love you damnit! I still fxcking loving you.. I saw you on on-it. But what's that compare to a misscall, a text message.. Fuck I give my whole if you want it. I just want to be with you. I seriously do.. But not a breakup..

requiem II end

My family is ever growing.. That is the conclusion for post #30..

requiem end:

Let's and shall I,
treasure thy around me,
no less yet more of it,
when you in pinch my world collide,
vice versa it's to me,
to you I vow, my family,
I loved and shall always be,
even when we are far separated physically,
spiritually never be,
and remember this,
people will always says what they want,
it's only because they,
never knew.

Now now, I never try to be a proud person or a weak one. But mind you, I have things you wish isn't existing..

Requiem, END

Split

Maybe, it's the best thing, to do, is have a break from 'this world'.

I'm going to miss you, like how I miss the 'last'.. Though I don't love you like how I loved. Maybe YOU don't know what love is..

Then this is goodbye..

20/11/09

When other's is happy, I am the reflects..

Oh well.. Let's find a new one! ~I'm kidding.. Seriously..

undisclosed

As long I am here, NOTHING's going to change! I need to move on.. I need to.

black and white conformirtry.. here I come:

CODENAME: wyde

To THY I trust .

this town has been cursed

Bokke!

Now, now.. I'm just kidding..

But it's true.. Perhaps, just perhaps, all this misfallen that happens to 'us' and 'them' are all just cursed.. Or is it..

Perhaps, when things are prepared, they will never come to as we expected.. Because 'we' are the 'cursed one'. Once, 'we' roam, shall roam again..

Creepy..

with or without you

sunk

again (lonesome remix pt: II)

I'm starting to hate myself. More and more.. And more and more.. I can't even maintained a simple relationship.. I don't know. I feel, it's happening again.. A 'second lost'. NO..

Why must this happen.. Whyy!!!! ~oh, so over dramatic..

It's not the time yet.. We are just going to celebrate our third month's anivesary (though the previous two aren't celebrated at all..) still.. I pray wish you won't leave me..

I'm not strong enough to live alone, again.. No, I'm not.. It's hurt once, it sure will hurts twice..

And now I'm tired..

cleansing me

For the past few months I have been doing stuffs stupidly beyond my redemptions..

Tracing back, I knew, that was not what I wanted after all.. And I will start to clean up those secret I had hold for long. I only wanted to be with the one I love..

Just a little while more.. Just a little while..

-- I'll try to --

I'll wait you if it takes me a week, a month, a year

I'll try to wait..

I'll love you if it takes me a week, a month, a year

I'll try to love..

And I hope you could do the same too for me..

Try to understands this, I am only trying to understands you..

love, happy birthday

This is for you, love.. The real present is when we meet, and I can't wait to get it from you.. I loved you so much...

you called

that was what I was hoping for the past few weeks.. You finally called me on my mobile. How I yearn to hear your voice.. But it was a petite one. Are you doing fine there alone, dear? I was surprised you told me you going somewhere soon.. I'm sorry..

What I regretted the most that is, I forgotten your birthday.. Truly, I thought it was on January. I lied when I said I got you your birthday present. Truth is, I was so much think that you going to leave me that I never once think about your thought.. I'm sorry.. I know how much you cared for me, your love for me.. I'm sorry..

I was never a good guy to begin with.. I'm sorry..

-when I woked up, you will still be there-

set it free

If only I could set it free.. This was viewed from a myspace page of a dear friend of mine who is a dear to me..
Maybe, just maybe if I set you free, doesn't mean I don't love you anymore, just that, you was never meant for me no matter how much I loved you.. I really do.. You just can't never come back to me, love.

quitit

I quited my work and I liked it..